90 days sober - recovery rocks!

I haven`t updated the blog or my art sites for a while and there is a reason. I have been going through intensive outpatient treatment for almost a year now. It started in January 2011 and I was in serious denial about my alcohol addiction. No matter how hard I tried I could never stay sober more than a maximum of 11 days and I have tried so hard and have been close to giving up everything all together many times. I feel that I have been going through the hardest battle I have ever fought. This summer I called my therapist and told her that if I don`t get help immediately I will drink myself to death. I am sorry if this comes as a big surprise and shock to those who know me and think I have been fine for a long time. Get real...addicts lie. After I got into the best treatment program available here in my home town, I finally decided to put the bottle down for good or I would have no life at all. I went through a horrible at home detox and I seriously feared that I would go into a seizure or a withdrawal psychosis. Thanks to the Lord Jesus and the treatment team I have been able to stay sober and today I have been sober for 90 days!!!!! Praise God who has been watching over me. I am so thankful to the drug clinic, all the wonderful staff who have taken my issues seriously and to Jesus for getting me to the place I am now - free from this demon that has haunted me for way too long. It is time to say goodbye. I will not go into this much further. I feel healthier and happier than ever before and I can`t wait to have a sober Christmas! Last year was so sad....My heart goes out to all the addicts and their families who are suffering during this time. Remember, as long as there is breath in your body there is hope. I thought I was washed up and burned out. Now I can`t wait to see what the future holds for me! Today I have done some Christmas gifts shopping. I haven`t been able to paint as much as before because of my studies, but I will bring gifts. And the greatest gift I can give to those who love me is my sobriety. 90 days. And still counting. And as time goes by and my relationship with the Lord strenghtens once again I pray that all the bad memories and hurt and tears will one by one be gone - be gone - be gone - be gone...in Jesus name! Blessings!